Sad Rant.
Click this if you wanna read more…but I don’t recommend it. I’m getting really depressing and sobby, and frankly everything I’m about to say is a serious downer. I just can’t find my journal.
I just found out that a really close family friend died. I’m not someone who tends to get all torn up over stuff. This was a super sweet man, he and his wife were my passed grandparent’s best friends. His death hit me really hard. Recently I have really missed my grandpa. He died when I was 12, and I saw it happen. I have no memories of him. I never gave him the time of day. The only thing I remember about him is watching him die.
I want a grandpa. I want a grandpa so bad. I had one and I didn’t appreciate him and now I’ll never get to have one.
So…I’m sitting here crying. I don’t have a grandpa and my “replacement” grandpa died. This weekend we got to shoot guns with my friend Chris’s grandpa and all I could think about was how jealous I was that he got to have memories like this with his. His grandpa gets to meet his friends, watch him grow up, and be proud of the person he’s becoming.
So depressing. I am so sorry…I tried to warn you…
about 3 hours till I’m 21…yay…
