March 2012
9 posts
“I saw myself in a human cesspool, trying to walk through, with only my nose and...”
– Karen
From, Dr. Verle Bell, “Moving Away from the Bondage of Your Past to a Life of True Freedom”
SPRING BREAK!!
What am I going to do with my oodles of free time??
cook
sleep
play ukulele
throw things at my cat
sleeeeep
work
Hang out with the high school best friend and the elementary best friend and the current best friend
Go to Real Hac. And then describe it on here with many words.
Sleep
I really like sleeping. It’s gonna be a great week. I should probably plan some activities in...
Writer's Block
I have always loved stories. All of my freshman year I would punctuate any awkward silences with “Will you tell me a story? Let me help you. Once upon a time…” and then make them finish. But I didn’t just like to hear stories, I loved to write them, to tell them, to share my creativity. Throughout middle school I would carry around gigantic binders full of loose-leaf paper...
Goal
I need to write a story. My intense lack of creativity or lighthearted thoughts make me feel like I’ve lost grips with my former self. I actually got my Tumblr exactly two years ago on my 19th birthday. For the first 6 months all I did was write long soliloquies about the world from my perspective. Granted, my world was pretty small (I devoted like 5 entries to my tank of Sea Monkeys that I...
February 2012
141 posts
I am at a birthday dinner with my parents. It is taking them FOREVER to give me my ukulele! They keep mentioning it and taunting me. I am soo impatient.
SO EXCITED.
A prayer for my 21st
Lord: In this next year work in my life. Teach me your unfailing love, even when I don’t feel love around me.
Teach me to follow you even when it’s hard. Doing things your way is always worth it, even if there is momentary discomfort. When I forget your faithfulness open my eyes to know you’re always there.
Give me insight and make me your tool to do great things, but never...
Turning points like this scare me to death.
I got my roommate an encouraging card and some Starbucks ice cream (she had a really tough weekend and needed someone to remind her how wonderful she is). Two minutes ago I was feeling really down and sad, but her reaction totally cheered me up. When God led me to spontaneously buy her a gift who knew that part of it would be fore me? =]
Sad Rant.
Click this if you wanna read more…but I don’t recommend it. I’m getting really depressing and sobby, and frankly everything I’m about to say is a serious downer. I just can’t find my journal.
I just found out that a really close family friend died. I’m not someone who tends to get all torn up over stuff. This was a super sweet man, he and his wife were my...
God is teaching me about my own value. I have value. I am worth so much more than I give myself credit for.
I have been depriving myself of value for years. I wouldn’t let people touch me, because I knew they didn’t want to. “They only want to hug me because society says they have to. I don’t want to force them.” I wasn’t worthy of any physical attention of...
My friends are all so much cooler than your friends. You might think your friends are awesome but…um…not as cool as mine.
Unless we have some of the same friends, in which case: SOME of your friends are as cool as my friends. :-)
When did my guy friends stop being “boys” and become “men”? They are clearly men, but it weirds me out to act like my peers are growing up.
On a related note: all of my guy friends are wonderful, talented, amazing men. Even if I’m reluctant to call them that. :-)
“Even in our darkest hour we should always remember never to despair.”
– The Greatest Game Ever Played
I love my friends. Seriously. They are a legitimate blessing in my life. And we are going.off-campus and hanging.out (at my best friend’s house! Woot woot!) All weekend! :-) I feel like God could totally use this weekend to bring us closer together. He can do amazing things if we give him the smallest opportunity.
Praying for this weekend! I am so excited!
I want to double-dog-dare my lab partner to have an emotion other than apathy and condescension. Nay, triple-dog-dare. It’s kind of a bummer, and I am already listless and un-energetic today.
All I wanna do is sleep. But I have no time to do anything except homework and class. Then homework and class. I may skip mafia for the first time all year so I can go to bed early…
Decisions.
As long as you allow your past to haunt you,...
Bliss
I get to spend all night playing with a puppy and cooking! Best. Wednesday. Ever!
I want to start writing again, I don’t remember how I used to do this. Maybe all of my ideas and creativity have been sucked dry! That would be terrible!
I always get really excited when an attractive boy is in my elementary ed classes. There are about 5 male elementary ed majors. It is even more exciting when they are good-looking/non-strange.
Preparing myself for an hour of plotting eye-contact. Yeah. Scandalous.
I realized today that I am going to really miss my job while I’m in Honduras.
Over Christmas Break there was one day where I was driving to work in Westfield (it’s a 45 minute drive without traffic) and I was led to stop in Walgreens and pick up a surprise for my client. I didn’t get her anything big, EOS lip balm. All my friends and I here at school use it. I could tell that...
